| Not it! |
[Jan. 14th, 2010|01:42 am] |
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It's strange. I have a growing uneasiness about talking on the phone. I was never much of a phone talker to begin with but I think working at Quickie for five years made me detest it. Stupid customers asking stupid questions, none too few of them launching into yelling because they're crabby that I've been trying to get ahold of them for weeks because they didn't come to pick up (and more importantly pay for)the work we did for them. But that had been going on for years.
Recently, I get nervous about making normal calls to friends or family. Hell, I even get nervous about calling for take out. It takes me about five minutes to psych myself up for it. And every time the phone rings at the Bou and I realize that I have to answer it (because I'm closest and my coworker is busy), my stomach turns into a pit. Most of the time it's just people asking when we close or if we have free wi-fi. But I still get a feeling of dread. When I realize that I'm not in the position to answer the phone (I'm making a drink or what not), I cheerfully call out "Not it!" but oh my god I mean it. And I'm so relieved that I get kinda giddy for a few minutes afterwards.
I don't know why this is or why it's getting worse. I don't like it very much. |
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| NaNoWriMo #4 |
[Nov. 14th, 2009|09:40 pm] |
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| | A Glorious Dawn - Carl Sagan | ] |
Guess what? I'm actually still writing this darn book. Go figure. I meant to post this update yesterday, but then SG-U and Whitecollar were on and I forgots.
Last week's total: 10,122 / 50,000
Nov 7: 1936 words
Nov 8: 3472 words (end chapter 3)
Nov 9: 0 words :(
Nov 10: 2841 words
Nov 11: 2437 words (end chapter 4)
Nov 12: 2680 words
Nov 13: 0 words :(
Nov 14: 3113 words
End of week word count: 16,479
Current total: 26,601 / 50,000
Completed Chapters: 4 / 18
Chapter 5 is just about done but since I have a total of 18 chapters, I'm pretty sure this thing won't be done by 50,000. Just a thought. I had two 0 word count days this week, but i made up for them by going over the daily goal (1667/day) every day. Tomorrow is the 25k (halfway) mark, and I'm at 26.5k today so I'm actually ahead of the game.
It's really fun. Seriously. It would be so cool to be paid to write. What a life that would be. |
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| NaNoWriMo #3 |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|09:40 pm] |
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| | The Dresden Dolls - Miss Me | ] |
I've picked Fridays as the end of my writing work week. Mostly because today's final word count goal is suppose to be 10k and it seemed like a good time to post. Ahem:
Nov 1: 2,900 words
Nov 2: 1,196 words (end of chapter 1)
Nov 3: 0 words :(
Nov 4: 2,426 words
Nov 5: 1,911 words
Nov 6: 1,589 words (end of chapter 2)
End of week word count: 10,122 words
Current total: 10,122 / 50,000 words
Completed chapters: 2 / 18
Well okay, so far so good. I didn't make goal every day, but I made goal for the week by the correct day. Excellent.
On to week two. |
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| NaNoWriMo #2 |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|11:29 pm] |
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| | The Dresden Dolls - Truce | ] |
It's the second day and I started off pretty good. I won't be posting about it every day, more like once a week. But since this is the beginning, I'll put what I've done so far:
1st: 2900 words
2nd: 594 words and counting.
I had most of Sunday free but today I had to draw a comic and work, so I only had a half hour or so to write, hence only about 600 words.
Current total: 3490/50,000
So far so good. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 27th, 2009|03:48 pm] |
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| | Monday Monday Monday | ] |
Starting to get sick, but then who isn't?
I have lots to do this week, including find a darn dress for Lindz wedding. I have a back up outfit but I really think I'd like a dress. Of course I don't know the first thing about dress shopping, so we'll see how it goes.
This whole week seems very bottom heavy. Here at the beginning I haven't much to do but work and get my act together. Then at the end of the week I have party on Thursday, Wedding on Saturday and another party that night. And at 12am that night is also the kickoff for NaNoWriMo. Of course I won't be sitting with my fingers poised on the keyboard waiting for it to change to 12, since I'll likely still be at Rainbow Room. (All invited. Lindz, if you find yourself just a bit too tired to make it, I think we'll understand :) The drag shows should be fun. |
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| Writer's Block: Take the pain away |
[Oct. 25th, 2009|11:00 pm] |
I'm doing okay. In fact, I rather like the person I am today.
But you should probably know that I still blame you for destroying part of who I was as a child. You had a tough time, I get it. But I don't think you realized how tough you made MY time for me. Life made you cry. But you, specifically, were the one who made ME cry. You made me feel like shit, day in and day out while forcing me to smile in an attempt to not upset your fragile nature. You weren't the only one who went home and cried themselves to sleep at night. You were broken by whatever illness you had. I was broken by someone who was suppose to be my friend.
As an adult taking the classes I've taken, I realized that what we had was an abusive relationship. I tried my hardest to stick with it, long after you had torn away every decent reason that I should. But I had to walk away. I'm sorry, but I had to. I know you were sick. But I know that if I stayed, I would have ended up sick too.
I don't hate you. Please don't think I do. This is probably a surprise to you, but that's my point. You never NOTICED what you were doing to me. I became the terrible one, running away like I did. The part that hurts is that I know that not all of me escaped that day. I had to leave part of me behind, broken and bleeding on the ground, bludgeoned beyond recognition. I feel her absence every time my patience for someone with an illness like yours grinds to a halt and I snap and act crass and uncaring. To this day, her absence can still make me cry.
I thought you should know.
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| NaNoWriMo update #1 |
[Oct. 23rd, 2009|01:11 am] |
Welp, step one of my preparation for NaNoWriMo is done.
Using yWriter5 as an organizational tool, I plotted out my entire book from start to finish (18 chapters) tonight in about 4.5 hours. Around 4000 words in scene description alone. And that was including a massive amount of internet-based interference (stupid facebook games). I had actually started doing this a few weeks ago, but since I was unable to open my previous file, I had to start over. Luckily I'd only gotten a few scenes into Chapter 2 before I stopped last time so it didn't feel like a completely devistating loss. I didn't let it get my down and forged ahead. I'm quite surprised at and proud of myself for that.
So now that that is done, my goals feels that much closer to being feasible. 50k in 30 days is still pretty insane in my mind, but at least I can just start writing on November 1st without having to stop and nickpick where the hell I'm going with this. It's good. It's put me in a positive state of mind for writing. Those 4.5 hours went by so fast. I looked up and it was suddenly 1am. I hope writing the actual body of the story will prove just as easy.
Yeah so consider this my first official NaNoWriMo update. Don't expect another one until the end of the first week of November since starting the book early would be "cheating". Apparently. |
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| NaNoWriMo |
[Sep. 19th, 2009|01:18 pm] |
Welp, just signed up for Nation Novel Writing Month. I think I'll try to write my Golden Strut story, though my Son of Cain story is weighing heavy in my head right now, even though I'd originally though to make a graphic novel out of it. I'll try it out and try to write as much as I can, if only to measure how much I can actually write in a month. 50k? Maybe not. But my goal is at least for 25K. That would be nice. And if I don't even get that, at least I'll have started to process, right?
I think I might keep a weekly update on words written here, just so more people can hold me accountable. We'll see if it works.
Anyone whose signed up, my username is Modern_Ruin there as well, so buddy me. :) |
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| The Golden Strut |
[Sep. 6th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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| | The Moment I Said It - Imogen Heap | ] |
I have a story in my head. It could possibly fill a trilogy. The first book is basically planned out in my head. I have characters, settings and plots. Emotions, attitudes and reasons. I just need to start writing but it's such a daunting feeling and can't even imagine how to start. I have some cards tapped to my wall in a general order of how I want the plot to go, but I haven't finished the first book plotting and every time I think to, I'm busy doing something else. When I have hours of free time, I just don't feel the fire.
Don't mind me while freebase some people/places/ideas.
The Golden Strut. . . Letty and Joh . . .The Idea Market . . . The Copper Cowboy . . . The Warren . . . The Under Warren. . . giant bipedal mouse with bent whiskers wearing a vest and a charcoal boiler hat . . . Philmont? . . . Art for art . . . Work for nothing . . . slavery . . .The Clockwork Horse (Mount?) . . . tall boy with dirty hands . . .
Gah, it's so close to being started but my fingers keep freezing. My brain keeps doubting itself. And I'm left sitting here thinking of the wonderful world I could create if only I let myself do so. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 31st, 2009|07:42 pm] |
So the fourth season of Supernatural gets released officially tomorrow. I preordered this baby months ago on Amazon and am quite ready to get it. I initially thought that they would start the shipping process on the first, but when I looked back to make sure my order was still, as they say, in order, I noticed that it said "Estimated date of DELIVERY", September 1st. HOLY CRAP! That means it might be here tomorrow. I'm excited.
Season 5 starts on the 10th.
Yay :) |
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